I came back from Nicole's at like...4:00 I think. I loved playing with Chase. I get to babysit him tomorrow morning for a little bit too. I have to hurry cause I gotsta shower. Um...I had fun at Nicole's. Eric makes me laugh a lot and Nicole is a lot of fun too. I went to the doctors with her and Chase. He got his flu shot, 2 shots in EACH LEG. He cried so bad and so did Nicole. Cause he was so happy and then she stuck the fruiten needle in him and ruined his happy life. Stupid doctors...speaking of doctors, I'mma have to go back for many things. My back is KILLING me, I think there's a problem, and Mom was also thinking about taking me to an eye specialist. My pupils are huge. And I get headaches so often and I think It's behind the eyes. I think! So, yeah. But I hate the doctors. She's gonna ask me AGAIN if I've gone to therapy, and no, I haven't. There's been a lot going on and I'm just not ready for it yet. Yeah, I'd LOVE to feel better and actually talk to someone that cares about what I'm saying and really listens, but...I'm just not ready. I've been miserable and depressed for pretty much my whole life...I can take it for a while more. I gotta go, I have nothing good to say. I hope all of you are happier than me. I love you guys.
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